PuR3Milk's ArticLe

2010-01-13T19:59:00.002+08:00

why does the same thing always repeat!! damnnnn!!!! this is really shitty. from head to toes. my problem or others?

hell to it.

byebye

updates.

2009-12-15T11:29:00.002+08:00

The last post was like 1 month ago? didn't really have much stuff to updates, nov was a busy month for me, APEC week concurrently having my exams! i think i am going to flop one of my papers. lol. All right other than work and studies, quite routine having soccer session almost every sat. watched hua mulan abit boring, watched Storm warrior EVEN WORST! Too high expectation on this movie end up damn disappointed! lol.

ok wana complained abit about this damn work thing, always met the same kind of ppl at work! Sick and tired of this kind of ppl. Sucks big time!!!! Sometimes jus need to endure and let it pass. but when it occurs its so sickening as u see the f**k up side of them. They are like so faked!! always putting nice words in front, and as what i know, u just wana make use of ppl, and somehow what u did was somehow not appreciated.
ok but theres still nice ppl around. Shall not because of one ass and forgotten about the nice ppl. i know i have a bunch of good friends. sometimes its jus nice to complained and review about how shitty those kinda ppl are!!! As i know we are all in the same category! lol.

phuket trip is just 1 day away! YAY!!! gotta throw everything behind and enjoy!! And i am actually looking forward to christmas, cus for the first time we are not going to celebrate xmas indoor! we are going outdoor!!!! sentosa : pinic, drinking and games!! all right lets look forward to 2010 i hope its still a better year! =)

why!!!!!!!

2009-11-13T20:50:00.003+08:00

Why do i always wana bother?
Why do i always wana care?
Why can't i just ignored?
feeling damn frustrated now.
its jus so hard to built a rapport with humans.

3 more days to final paper. only 2 chapters READ not even memorise.
feeling damn lousy now as usual. Hopefully when thigns are over, its a fine day again!

Touched your heart

2009-11-12T19:24:00.006+08:00

This is such a nice video. for animal lovers. words can't explained, view it to understand.

thoughts

2009-10-22T11:13:00.001+08:00

The problem in today's world is that, People are used and things are loved... During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind: Things are to be used, but People are to be loved ...

Be yourself....This is the only day we HAVE.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

We can do no great things, Only small things with great Love.

listen.

2009-10-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

This blog has become a come and go place, realise each entry is shorter than another very lil about my personal life now. haaa probably have been blogging and whining too much in the past. but RIGHT NOW i felt like whining again. Same stuff about exams, i dunno why whenever exams is near i kinda feel damn tense up, not a moment i am relaxing even before my bed time, i am kinda damn worried theres no time to study kinda worried the result would be as shitty as before. trying damn hard to hang on. i dun wana disappoint ppl, having regrets to quit my studies! what needs to be done needs to be done! I AM NOT GIVING UP! jus wana WHINE how shit exams is i know i am not alone going through! damn. i wana pass my exams!!!! WOOSH!!!!!!!! Morale booster!

Planned to carried on my studies today but due to work commitment i came home late and yet again i felt damn uncomfortable without completeing that chapter i intends to. damn tired now.
busy busy busy! gosh dec pls come, i wana go for my holiday!!!

Ok the things resurface again, should i give it a try again? should i go? damn this is a hard decision.

Just wana talk about something totally unrelated to this random post and hope its meaningful to u all go think about it. here it goes:

In life u never know whats going to happen next so dun think about things thats not happening, if u worried too much, more stuff surface and its not going to help. u can feel how terrible it is, u can feel how fuck up it is. but this world is cruel it will nv reverse the time for u. its either u have that mentality to face it or u give up yrself. Things are jus as simple, its just human being making it more complex. People might said : it is easier to speak than implementing it. then u are giving yrself a death sentence, by putting words to dead, so take a deep breathe now! and tell yrself u are going to do it! it do helps by giving yrself confident. be it success or failure but at least u being there and done that. REMEMBER!!!

all right I wana go koon soon!! tml is tuesday 3 more days to friday! at least a weekends to rest! POSITIVE!!!! WOOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 month to exams!! WOOSH! And good luck to my return plan! 80% i am going to failed this and its my third attempts. lets hope being persistent pay off!

good night! =)

Struck

2009-10-07T22:47:00.001+08:00

Happen to come across this short film. its a 7 mins short film which is enough to touch yr heart.
below is the link to view. Enjoy! lets get Struck!

http://www.struckthefilm.com/

lousy

2009-10-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

feeling damn lousy at the moment, perhaps its that pre-exam symptoms. somehow when i think of it! its those hair pulling scary worried feeling.

Nov another event coming which means work is going to be busy. At the same time i am having my exams!! double combo!

All right i have removed my car decals due to many many reason. and after removing it, theres more problem and more money spents! pocket burn big hole!!! sigh....

and at the moment nothing in my mind to blog about. nothing really happening. looking forward to dec! christmas , new year and of cus my trip to phuket!!! =)

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2009-09-28T12:34:00.001+08:00

feeling damn all screw up!!! fuck up feeling.

1 months 15 days to exams.

updates.

2009-09-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

Been really busy recently as in even busier than before! but somehow i am happy. hahaha.
Changed a working environment better ppl definently!!! ok i had my long week end started last friday. went service car follow by night movie, then sat had a socccer session and it actually rain but we played in the rain! its been sometimes since we had done that, sunday went singapore import night, then supper, monday is a resting day!!!

This week is F1 week sad to said i need to work till midnight! and yes i am now in office blogging! its damn boring! theres like only me and my another colleague. haaaa BORED!!!!!
all right gtg have my dinner in OFFICE! =~ lol pathetic ass.

ciaos exam is coming and i haven even started my revision, DIE! so stressssssssssssssss.

sometimes u could nv understand things in life, if u can't figure it out then dun even bother or waste yr time.

The Mayonnaise Jar

2009-09-13T20:23:00.001+08:00

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class And had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jarand proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectivelyfilling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - family,children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --The things that really matter.Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.

Nothing much

2009-08-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

Been busy to updates on whats going. bascially been busy at work, can't use msn, but still i have my iphone to surf some facebook! lol provided i have the time. haaaa. reach home doing school assignment. weekends going out.
jus celebrated chun birthday and we give him a surprise party at farm resort. its a total success!!! and we had so much fun. taking pictures laughing like hell playing wii!! all right shall see when i will be back. I AM GOING TO HAVE SOME REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

为何我总是看着远方

updates

2009-07-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

All right didn't manage to update much also. whole of this week reservist. had my 2nd blading session last sat and it was fun! do some monkey stunt together with glenn at the skate park lol we are like clowns! but at least we amused everyone else! nearly got banged down by a idiotic cyclist! a guy! jus cycle his bloody act damn cool bicycle! nearly knock down down a uncle and me and nv even apologised! hope yr bicycle puncture! =)

nothing much coming up. tml chalet. kelong plans is still ongoing, still waiting for the dates! =)
and been listening to this song lifehouse - storm! damn nice which is now playing on my blog if u turn on the volume u probably be listening to it now!

here goes the lyrics!

How long have I been in this storm?So overwhelmed by the oceans shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right
I know you didnt bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because Im so used to living underneath the surface

My new blades!

2009-07-31T23:33:00.001+08:00

The blading session at ECP

2009-07-31T23:31:00.001+08:00

Update july

2009-07-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

Ok have not been blogging recently. Getting busier and plus i am plain lazy! =)

I just got a new phone. Iphone. and i simply just love it although it can't bluetooth to other phone. its a selfish phone! lol i love the applications! Everyday touch and touch!!! Secondly i got a new inline skate! BLADES!!!!! SIMPLY OVERSPENT THIS MONTH! lol Recently trt has a new activities which is blading!! yap xj is learning. and its really fun! blading in a grp. and i have not been blading like 10 years? haha but luckily i still know how to blade!!! this coming sat we are going to ecp again! follow by movie. just glad that our grp is back in action. probably most of them has completed their studies and working now. So more time for entertainment! =)
Met kaixin last week for dinner its been sometimes since i last see her. so decides for a simple dinner at aston! After dinner we was like thinking where to go! and we actually settle for ktv! 2 person KTV!!! sing like mad. before the 3 hrs session end we are puncture!!! lol but get to sing most of the song i wana try. haha and the bill is really damn cheap its like $31 for like 3 hrs. Suntec kbox do not charge cover charge if you are a member!!! so get a drink and u can sing all u wan in 3 hrs! lol

Happy with my activities this 2 weeks. and i felt really contented. Things i am supposed to said or done is done. If its meant to be in this way, it has a reason and i felt really relief afterall =). So lets look forwards instead of looking backward. and i am actually looking forward to my new job. and this friday is going to be my last day for my current job!!!! YAYYYYYYY
i am actually thinking of closing down this blog after it has serve me well for like 5 years? lets see...

All right class started today. feeling restless but still manage to concentrate on whats going on, although sometimes i am jus daydreaming. i still manage to complete my tutorial!! lol all right time to rest!

Never said never

2009-07-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while
You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again

updates.

2009-06-28T13:30:00.002+08:00

All right its sunday! i always felt damn super lazy on sunday.

Recently i have made this grave mistake! and i actually felt damn guilty right now and i'm really sorry! dunno how to said it out. i thought things could work out. but somehow it doesn't seens to be. and yes that problem lies with me. i guess somehow i can't deceived my ownself, my own feeling. i'm in such a contradicting situation now. but guess slowly everything will be back to normal. somehow i need to changed my persistence in relationship.

Sometimes things are just fated. It took you one big round to come to realise it. perhaps its time to give myself and others a chance.

All right updates on weekends, friday night went to watched transformer! and i am totally excited about it even before the show! and it really doesn't disappoint me after watching it. the fact was i actually watched it twice in the span of 2 days!! ok crazy! next show to watch ICE AGE!!!

school is going to start soon. got back my result and i did really badly. its a wake up call. i not sure about this but i'm going to be more self discipline next semester. I have been wasting too much time bothering on other stuffs which somehow i have been neglecting my studies.

end of updates..

Transformer

2009-06-21T19:40:00.003+08:00

Transformer is coming next week! i can't wait for it! i got a feeling i going to catch it twice!FRIDAY PLS COME!!!!!! =)

Linkin park - New Divide!! Damn i love this song! Transformer OST!

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2009-06-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

arrrrrrrr shit! this is killing me........

updates.

2009-06-16T21:40:00.004+08:00

Its been sometimes since i have write something here. All right shall its been a busy month. a month where decision were make. Decides to move on.. and i'm moving off hopefully to a better place. talking about decision theres actually number of decision to make as i stated in the previous post. not sure this times if this is right but think i choose to give up. somehow not feeling that great either. i am too lazy to bother on how ppl judge me. when u bother too much you tends to get more frustrated. Words you can't said out, then well just let it be and forget about saying. I'm quiet. I'm used to be alone.

all right month of june i'm 25 now. thanks everyone for the birthday wishes. Thanks jess for the celebration. mmm nv expects that. Thanks louis and gang for the gifts.

Finally went sentosa on saturday and its really fun. its a full day activities. after sentosa went to pasir panjang for dinner and we order so much food. and really enjoy muching the food! LOL
After dinner head down to mount faber safra for bowling session. and poor yap's team lose to my team and they need to treat us drinks!!! wahahaha... after bowling headed down to commonwealth mac. they called it the garden macdonald or what not sure but its just a standalone mac with garden surrounding it? quiet nice! ok we had our free drinks there. thanks yap's team! after supper headed home.

Sunday! morning wake up met chun, jialing, yap and xinjie at arab street! all want to buy crystal. recently me and yap is really crazy over blink blink! haha deco for our cars. and its really fun doing it. bascially we had so much crazy ideas. lol took a walk down arab street and to haji lane do some window shoppin! haha manage to get our crystal and went to nearby to eat prawn noodles. not bad ar. but i still prefer macpherson prawn noodle! FAVOURITES CAN! haha.

bascially last weekends was packed! so this coming weekends i think i'm going to rot at home!
all right enough of updates. gotta blog something meaningful below.

Carrot, Egg or Coffee

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, 'Tell me what you see.' 'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. A fter pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma . The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. A fter they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. 'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?

A re you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? Think of this: Which am I ?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor.

If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity?

A re you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

new.

2009-05-29T22:02:00.003+08:00

Have been staring at this screen for like 354234523452345 mins. but yet i am still sorting out what to type here correctly.

Haven been feeling that great recently. Have constantly been bother by some things. There are like millions of thoughts running through each day. but answer were never found. and its frustrating.

Conclusion : i have decided to let go the things i should let go. i shall go back to where i shall begin. I shall stop fred about things which i should never have. In this way i may feel better.

smile =)

love

2009-05-26T21:09:00.004+08:00

2 different people, 2 different world, but standing at the same place looking at the same thing.

Any chances dun let it slip away go for it. At least you don't regret after that.

touched.

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2009-05-25T16:56:00.001+08:00

i still prefer the old skin. =)

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2009-05-25T08:57:00.000+08:00

new skin. doesn't look any different.

not happy. no elaboration.

random

2009-05-21T09:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes if things were to be in more simple way, it won't be so complicated.
or its just that people make it complicated.

dishearted.

Exams.

2009-05-13T21:26:00.004+08:00

finish my first 2 paper. and yes the 2 most scariest paper i have. i know i am going to do badly for this 2 paper. first paper finish, hand up walk out. cursing and swearing. best part is i need to wait 1 and a half hour for the next paper. i know i did my best. and somehow was thinking that was the best i can do? damn really very very demoralised. 2nd paper, done up the first 2 question finish 3rd question with dunno what the hell i am writing. i am jus writing codes i feel is correct. by the time i finish up question 3. i'm left with like 20 mins for question 4? do what i can at least written some darn codes. anyway its over. its not i nv tried hard. its just probably the paper is too tough. DAMN JAVA PROGRAMMING!!!

next monday 2 paper. both networking. maybe something a consolation. should be able to score well for this 2.

beautiful impefection. someone somewhere at certain corner.

1 more.

2009-05-11T11:58:00.001+08:00

1 more day to first paper. zzzzz
1 more week to end the exam. zzzzzz
1 more month to 25!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Random

2009-05-09T13:43:00.002+08:00

Please pull me through this.

The more u expect, the greater disappointment you get.

Updates.

2009-05-02T10:13:00.002+08:00

All right long weekends for everyone! =) down with a cold on friday. feeling rather terrible unable to get to slp! thanks to my dad. he pass it on to me! lol. yea on labour day. Basically visit a doctor, came home pop in the flu medicine and started to feel drowsy after sometimes. so slept through the noon. woke up at 4 plus feeling better! wonders of medicine. slack abit although i still feel like going back to slp. lol

Met louis 6pm at cineleisure to get QL's birthday present. anyway QL treated us to a wonderful dinner shall elaborate later. yea QL was so into transformer, so we decided to get him a transformer figure which he has been hoping for, anyway he collects transformer stuff. lol. went can't find the model at cineleisure, so i suggested lets walk to far east to see if theres one. Me and my stupid idea. the weather was hot like HELL! and i'm wearing long sleeves shirt. LOL while walking trying to calm myself. cause hot plus crowded = PEK CHE! the result of ai swee dun wan life. wear long sleeves somemore! lol. by then when we walk to ngee ann city louis was sweating like hell! hahaha. reached fareast, went into the first shop ask the owner, nv sell! then i saw this transformer model which is a subaru car and can be transform to robot. i was like ok maybe could get himt hat, told louis, the next thing he told me look at the price. $270!!!!! curse and swear! such a small car toy cost 270! lol proceed to next shop and finally we found what we want. get it wrapped up. met jeffery and peiru and we headed to vivo.

QL brought us to this white dog cafe, ok he treat us! LOL food was not bad, i had sauage platter. the rest had sirloin steak and mango chicken. The mango chicken was nice! gotta eat that the next time. After dinner, we decided to catch a movie, WOLVERINE! =) marvel heroes eh. not bad, action movie. saw this movie trailer forgot the name alrdy, its something liek past girlfriends, i supposed its a comedy romance, and i definitely going to watched it. i jus love comedy romance so much ever since i watched american pie, story line was funny, but yet its so sweet! haha couple of movie coming up, Transformer 2, angels and devils, star trek. time to hit the cinema again. movie finish at 2am plus, sent louis back home, talk awhile at his house downstair. left at 3 plus reach home at 4. bath surf web for awhile 5am. and this morning i just woke up at 9am!! AUTOMATICALLY I JUS WAKE UP! shit, can't get back to slp also. lol. all right completed part of my revision this morning also, at least i feel at ease, have not been revising last few days, I FEEL DAMN GUILTY!

Ok this is a damn long post. see ya guys. will be back for more updates after my exam! =) byeeeeee

Random

2009-04-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

Ever stuck in a situation when u are in a dilema? In a difficult situation when decision are hard to make? Ponder for times, yet you can't find a single answer. mmmmm. thats what i am facing now. theres so many doubts and question all over. haaa but somehow i choose to just let things continues and react in a ignorance manner. Perhaps its better. Sometimes things doesn't seems to be what it is. So when u assume and its going to get in very difficult situation.

Exams are jus like 3 weeks away.
I still prefer to feel comfortable whenever i am.
I wish that I could find the words to say.
That everything I hold in.
Is everything I can't let go.

Be myself.

Home alone

2009-04-18T18:58:00.003+08:00

All right i'm home alone over the weekends! mmm 6 days to be exact. My whole families went for holiday! beijing! i can't go cause of worka nd studies commitment, and i just came back from taiwan not long ago too.

Watched fast and furious ytd with jessica. not a bad show. just that not much exotic cars. lol. storyline not bad, better than the previous one. after movie was supposed to go prive end up close. So sorry jess. then next destination intended to go selegie for bean curd but on our way pass by outram, so decided to have porridge! mmm and i kept losing my way! LOL. lousy..

ok woke up today at 11am. started doing my assignment and completed it! mmm mum not at home really damn pathetic la. i'm too lazy to go out buy so settle with a cup noodles. lol. after that went to pasir ris farm to pass my dog stuff to the pet hotel, roxy currently is staying put at pet hotel cause if i go work no one going to feed him! sighh. he looks sad. and the staff there told me he nv eat since yesterday!! i think he missses home. damnnnn i felt damn bad about this. went to mos burger after that and had my proper lunch. and went back home.

Dun think will be going anywhere tonight. called yap he is at genting, supposed to meet jeff and roger but think they are busy so jeff msg to tell me cancelled. mmm call most of them, but they are busy with work, or other stuff. Think i will just stay at home and watched some movies. =)

All right that should sum up my weekends. tml will be same, at home rest!

See ya guys.

Nice!

2009-04-15T12:57:00.001+08:00

Simply felt in love with this. NICE!

Morning 15/04/09

2009-04-15T08:33:00.000+08:00

Morning peeps. Wondering why i'm here early in the morning. just wana whine.

all right been working in ibm for like 1 year. But things has been going real bad recently. Ever since management changed, process changed, right now theres tons of unnesscessary stuff needs to be done, and ppl bugging you for this and that. Yet they are not doing their job well, when shits happen shit happen. Early in the morning, bugged you for irrelevant stuff. I really get damn irritated! and its getting on my nerves. have been looking around for new jobs. if not i will just concentrate on my studies. talking about studies its like 1 more month to exams. i need to buck up. Somehow things has not been going smoothly for me this year. I have been feeling not really well. and seriously i dun look well too. I have been bothering with many stuff. had a talk with my buddy. And what he said was true. even if i'm out i doesn't feel comfortable and enjoy. What i need was someone who could listen to me. Stand by me, and what i need most is support from someone dear to me. right now i felt i have always been standing alone by myself. and somehow i am kinda sick of this. its sometimes nice to have abit of support which could helps you to walk a further distance.

Whatever it is i need to oversome all this. i need to be more focus on what i am doing. its not a time to make harsh decision. i need to think probably for myself. i believe better days will come soon.

better...

Updates

2009-04-11T19:53:00.003+08:00

Have been doing assignment over the weekends. Trying hard to complete as much as possible. =) ok

met samantha yesterday! a last min thing, she asked if wana meet up. since i have nothing on so went to look for her. Met her at tampines chilled out, talk about her life. and its like so funny la.
Pester by her to go over her hse to play uno with her friends! i regret going! started playing uno! and loser has to do forfeit what the hell ok i lost twice. eating an apple in 20 sec. and eating biscuit soaked in bailey? DAMN!

went back around 12plus. met louis and QL. as usual, talk about things happening around us. and that ends the night. woke up today started doing assignment. eh seriously while typing i fine it so boring la! lol... going ktv later to celebrate kailing birthday.

While driving home yesterday, happen to hear Wei Yi by Leehom, somehow it brings my memories back to those days. not sure why, but the feeling is just soooo like mmmm dunno how to explained. But somehow i really miss those days. =)

Bye!

What yr eyes tell.

2009-04-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

You think deeply about things going on in the present, past, and sometimes even future.
You often drift off during work or class and start thinking about other things.
You always hide what your thoughts from your friends and it often takes a poke
or a snap of the fingers to bring you back to reality.
Your eyes often portray a different personality than you are.
Your eyes are a different part of your soul.

Nothing better to do at home. LOL was playing facebook those quiz!
and it really kills my time! U can imagine how boring i am.

ok but somehow this quiz was telling exactly what i was thinking!
DAMN ZUN LA! lol. all right to add on, i'm someone who doesn't take initiative.
that was what i am since long long long time ago. haaa and somehow most of my friends has been saying
this bad point of me! if i dun take initiative how am i going to get a gf. mmm thats maybe why my past relationship
most of them took the initiative first? haaa i am a loser la seriously! whatever it is. somehow i still feel there will be one
who will appreciate my this kind of nonsense pattern lol! Someone! somehow after all the waits. i'm kinda get use to it.

All right its public holiday tomorrow. should not be going anywhere. so it goes for sat and sun!
no programmes yet. i believe i will be rotting like mad.

i have so many things to complained.

bad days

2009-04-06T19:21:00.002+08:00

Things have been really getting on my nerves. Something disgusted happen at work, and i really feel damn helpless about this. All i could do was to just accept it and treat it that it was my fault!
yes been scolded for nothing. and they actually put words in my mouth, things i nv said turn out to be what i have said! can anyone know whats the feeling of this. i feel damn shitty now. was supposed to go school, but i didn't. i just wana come home.

nothing more to said. i am pissed! DAMN PISSED!

Sunday!

2009-04-05T16:19:00.004+08:00

i seriously find that my week has been going faster and faster! its like now its sunday again? i miss poly term break or semester break! damn.

ok watched shinjuku incident on friday! with jessica and one of her friend.
i can't concentrate well on that show! cus theres this guy who is sitting in front of me is blocking my view with his turtle head and high comb hair!!! i hyad a hard time trying to see the subtitle.!! damn..

ok saturday! i woke up like 8 plus? and i had lesson at 9am! lol ok the previous night i reaached home didn't really get to slp. so slept at 4am!! lol ok i still manage to reach school at 9.10? lol after school went over to meet mike and kel. we had a lunch appointment! Thomson Teochew porridge! nice! haha after that went amk hub and i bought guitar hero 3!!! ps3!! lol can't resist, have been thinking of buying that for damn long. haha reach home around 3pm plus, rest awhile and i went out again! damn tired, this time its meeting TRT. very long since we all meet up in such a big group! and its really fun! we had dinner at sushi tei! somehow i ate alot! feel damn hungry! haha after dinner walk around orchard, me glenn and jeff the single always stay together and talk about how jialat we are! HAHA! damn funny la.

Ktv at international plaza! its like the concept has totally changed! room was like damn colorful? and theres even green blue red lights inside the table! which looks so OBIANG! haha but fun part was everyone was enjoying playing the clapping hand tingy. dunno how to explained what that stuff call, go partyworld and u know what i mean! especially jialing and chun! haha.

After ktv was like only 12am. so headed to selegie for tao hwaaa. nice! ok its kinda like those old times when we all were still riding and going anywhere for supper. thats nice! lol. and ah yap had half of his youtiao missing, not sure who mistaken yap's youtiao for his and ate it! lol everyone was been asked by yap! haha in the end to stop the thing going! ivan randomly admitted he ate it! so funny la.

talking about ivan, he is getting ROM! haha at temasek poly somemore! its going to be held there! thats where he and grace met each other. date 09/09/09! haha hungry ghost festival!

all right enuff said its like kinda long, woke up today started doing my assignment manage to complete 3 question gotta rest and play my PS3!(ok this sound like a damn retarded kid)

Byeee

tired

2009-04-02T20:23:00.003+08:00

its seems everything started to look so different, its like when you are doing this for long, u somehow felt the changes in people and stuff. things doesn't look as it was before.

was really tired this few days, can u imagine i slept at 9pm ytd! was lying on bed watching tv, but somehow i am jus staring into blank and the next thing i know i felt aslp! ok i had to wake up halfway to switch off the lights and tv. ZZZZZZZ

as i said in the previous post, when things happen u kinda gotta take it. damn becoming more and more long winded and somehow dunno why so emotional!! probably things i have seen around. damn, i gotta stop all this long winded stuff. need to get some life back man. my aim somehow seems so far away. been working hard to aim for it, a future i wana be, probably a nice family =) mmmm nv to mention, probably i have been thinking too much into stuff which probably i dun have to bother about.

People jus walk into yr life, and walk off easily. ever wonder if they really care. haaaa

all right end of another emotional blog! tired gotta get some rest. byeeeee

bad

2009-04-01T13:47:00.003+08:00

Have been staring at the screen for awhile. not sure what to type in although i have so much to said.

started off with work. ever since the team has changed stress has been added on. somehow i miss the old team. now we had a new team lead, new manager, processes keep changing, and somehow things were not taken care of. shits left behind for you to clear up. damn.

have not been feeling that great recently. so much stuff to ponder about, but yet i kept it all to myself. started to keep things within myself, as i dun wana affect others mood when we were out. i had so much to said. i'm just trying to surpress it and accept it.

if i could turn to you.

2009-03-28T20:11:00.003+08:00

I am down with a terrible flu sore throat and i am feeling so restless!!!!!
weather was damn hot!!! its not jus hot is super hottttt!!!

i'm feeling hot ! =)

something meaningful

2009-03-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube ,
listening to a song from her husband and friends

Received email from denise! Somehow gotta post here to share. Believe it or not, but anyway
if a person going through such pain. yet she got her happiness, lets live ours to the fullest.
stroy begins....

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots,
Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail.
The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

Katie died five days after her wedding day.
Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think.....
Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts. We should stop making our lives complicated.

Life is short
Break the rules
Forgive quickly Kiss passionately,
Love truly Laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
No matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
But as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

weekends updates

2009-03-22T16:46:00.000+08:00

KeKe the poodle
Richie the jack russell
bark cafe

updates for weekends. friday same met up louis and long for supper and some chat up.lol they are my friday supper buddies!ok sat woke up with a damn headache!!! damn.Met yap and xinjie at bishan prawning place for dinner. order quite number of food..left earlier cause need to meet mike and kel! Recently kel got imself a dog. Actually its a abandon dog!damn seriously pity that. His name is richie 1 yrs old. very well trained as a jack russell! haha ok met mel and kailing later on.So were discussing with them where to go so mel suggest bark cafe! nice place to chilled! its at changi chapel there. able to bring dogs over,Kailing brought her poodle and kel his richie! probably once i should bring Roxy there too!After bark cafe went over to changi village to have tea and tim sum! didn't really eat much, but the rest, eat like no tomorrow! lolnow its sunday! a day to rest and slack! tml its monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh.

2009-03-22T16:38:00.002+08:00

nothing good to be back

2009-03-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

All right ever since i am back from taiwan, things to do seems like double up! came back on thurs read my mails the next thing i know is i had to complete my quiz within the next 2 days! DAMN! follow by theres 2 assignment to be submit over the next 1 week! Gosh inside me was like damn seems like the fun over at taiwan is over! ARRRRRRRRRR. ok woke up the next day chiong finish my quiz. following by doing my assignment on sunday! manage to one complete half of 1 assignment only. follow by monday and tues night classes!

on wednesday? damn after i reach home, had my dinner, i started doing my assignment but at least i completed it ytd night! I FEEL REALLY DAMN STRESS! its like no time to rest! after working for the whole day go home stilll need to do all this shit! SIGH! yes i jus wana complained i dun care! and for today i started my second assignment! and its completed! just wana finish it so i could enjoy my weekends resting and maybe slack? haaa weekends!

exams is jus like 1 mth plus away! and guess what i didn;t study much! starting from april i am going to start my revision! so guess won't be out that often! A mono life style which i hated most! backside itchy go study!!!!!! zzzzzz.

is there anyone there to stand by me.. hardly i guess.. feel empty. nothing excite me at the moment! u put a strong character in front of everyone else but yet when things are over its only between you and yrself.

Back from taiwan

2009-03-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

I'm back from taiwan! Tml back to work and school!
Fun seems to always pass so fast!
Whole day doing assignment! zzzzzzz

Wish me luck 2 more months to exams.

taiwan

2009-03-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

TAIWAN WO LAI LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes 2 more days to taiwan! A trip that i have been looking for! initially didn;t really felt that excitement. but when its jus 2 days away, i can't help but get so excited about it!

Bascially i started packing my stuff only ytd, kinda rush but i still manage to get it 90% done by now. Passport is the first thing i put into my bag! lol... follow by inputting songs into my mp3! in case the flight everyone was slping at least i still can listen! i dun really slp when i'm in flight!

ok i skip school today! opps mmm ended work around 7pm, lesson start 7pm so the devilish of me tell me to jus drive home! =) holiday mood le la! lol. anyway theres a meeting tomolo. 6.30pm till 8.30pm! gosh meeting with managers is the worst case senerio! i am jus going to keep quiet and listen! lol.

all right will update when i am back! take care peeps.

Speechles

2009-02-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

Back home time now 10:53pm. Back home from soccer with cousin and his friends.

Now? bascially i have nothing to do. i really hate plans to be cancel at that last min. its like u thought u going to have something to do but end up CANCEL! Now i wasted my saturday staring at this screen and do nothing!

I need a smile when i'm mad. not going to said more.

happening.

2009-02-26T18:46:00.002+08:00

All right i am back away for jus a few days! i came back to blog for the sake of JESSICA! --> u see this!? LOL

ok taiwan trip is coming its just next week!!! Next week this day i will be in taiwan! Before this trip had some hiccups which nearly cost me this taiwan trip! yes i decided to tk the risk of going taiwan! LOL

Last week was a busy weekends. Friday ktv to celebrate wincy 25th birthday! opps mine is soon to come so no worries everyone gets to grow old! lol all right after ktv went to eat porridge at chinatown! not sure whats the store name but somehow it tastes nice. Sat was supposed to go bbukit timah with TRT but end up i had to do my quiz in the morning so decided to give it a miss. Afternoon went badminton session. I and roger won the match! we are the fight back kings! lol. night time went over to mike house for yet another birthday party, he cook some pasta and roast a chicken! yes all done by a guy MIKE CHUA. he is a good chef! Met up louis at night and chat up abit. and it ended the night! went home around 4am.

Sunday! damn whole day doing that stupid assignment. talking about school work. i seriously think of giving up. First time i feel so helpless! perhaps its really not that easy to balanced work, studies and abit of fun! wonder if i get my degree would life be better! By 28 target to setup my own family! ok this sound so....mmmmm. Nvm its only a target set. i may just died a single!

and now currently i'm on mc! yes wonder what did i eat! ytd whole day was not feeling well stomach contract and the pain come in. at certain i just had to hold and bend forward! i am getting weaker! i need to built back my fitness and health!

ok as what i told jessica! i seriously dunno what to write! but when i came in i just type in whole load of things out here! mmmmmmm perhaps its the mood! all right gtg.

cya soon! =)

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2009-02-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

Will be away for awhile.

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2009-02-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

Yes i'm back here! nothing much better to do.

Tml is friday! Ktv session is on!

1 more week to endure before my taiwan trip! YES!!!!

Hopefully all things will turn out well!

2009-02-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

And this is how i look like if i am going bald!!!
GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!! look terrible but yet funny!

2009-02-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Basically i and gabby has been playing with his macbook camera! LOL using different effects to take picture!
And i look so retarded!!!

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2009-02-18T10:27:00.002+08:00

Feeling damn shitty now. first time i thought of giving up. yes its about school. Assignments on java programming is driving me crazy! Bascially lesson was like shit, lecturer just talk and kinda no idea what he was talking, very little time on lab. and he does not go through all lab question! that made me even lost. Right now i am struggling on my assignment! damn. ok gotta be independent! but somehow i have that 80% feeling that i am not going to make it through! the confident was not there.

I need to concentrate more. sigh. so many assigment and quiz to be done yet so little time. Wish me luck in surviving!

Happy Valentines Day

2009-02-14T19:11:00.004+08:00

All right its Valentines Day. Enjoy this day with your special ones! For those who are single like me, well there will be this year where u would be able to celebrate too. Its just he/she has not appear in your life. Don't give up!!

All right how do i spent with my valentines day. basically early noon met yap and xinjie, went to garage to do lighting for his car. Well i wanted to do cabin light in my boot. But i can't!! damn cause the person saying was, the wire unable to connect so cannot, need to do switch. end up i didn't do! sigh. And still thinking if i should do the lighting for the headlight and bumper. not sure, still thinking! anyway Yap has done it! Ever since he got his car, he has done up so many stuff!

Went home after that, and wash my car! its sparkling clean again! ok so my vday partner was my car. -.-''' Tonight going to meet up with louis and quanlong, going macpherson to have supper! KWAY CHAP!!! so long since i have the delicious kway chap there. its really nice! Next week will be a pack week, sch and work as usual, Friday ktv(wincy birthday celebration so asking us to go ktv). Saturday badminton session is back with yap they all (TRT). Probably a movie after that. =)

all right i had nothing to do so went youtube to view some mtvs and funny videos! ok thats part of my hobbies too!(its damn boring la). Anyway uploaded 2 videos. Its a duet mtv. HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL! kinda like these 2 songs i'm going to sing it on friday!!!! LOL

張惠妹 & 蕭敬騰 : 一眼瞬間

F.I.R 天天夜夜

13/02/2009

2009-02-13T21:08:00.003+08:00

Its Weekends! Its been a long week ya. Talking about school, well i 'm kinda worried for one of the module which is java, basically the tutor doesn't help much, the lab he went through was terrible! He would just wrote on the board leaving blanks for you to fill in and goes on to enxt question, without going through with us if what u were doing was right! so i was kinda like damn lost! I am struggling! I'm wondering if i could make it the first semester!

although its weekend but kinda sian la. Somehow theres been not much programme. Somehow i still misses those days. Wanted to watched quite number of movies but eh somehow can't seem to find someone. Its kinda quite a routine life for me now. work and studies. i need to cheer up more.

Anyway happy valentines day to all! i can sense that i am going to stay at home and rot tomorrow!

somehow came across this lyrics. in some way it do make sense

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉

i'm trying to be a emo mama! lol.

Office hours

2009-02-10T11:23:00.002+08:00

All right Yes i am blogging during office hour. since i had this little time, well just come up and whine about stuff.

Had been feeling quite low mood lately. Not sure why, probably have been thinking too much relating to work. I still have not make up my decision to leave. Still looking out for other job. School was fine still cooping well at least! ok perhaps i have been whining too much lately too.

Nothing special coming up. Only the taiwan trip.

signed off.

lazing sunday.

2009-02-08T16:27:00.002+08:00

All right its a lazy sunday as always. and i didn't really do much for the weekends! Sad to said its monday tomorrow. and night classes!!!!!!!

Anyway i didn't even realise that Vday is coming, untill angelina mention about she bought vday gift for her bf. ok its like been 4 years since i am single. and ppl is saying, any longer i can go uphill and be a monk! -.- i know i know but its kinda hard la. when u met the correct one but yet u may not be their one. use to have those planning of getting married by 28 blah blah blah, but hey i am not sure at age 30 would i still be single!? lol

the same saying. when yr fate comes how u wana avoid she will still be the one! i am still waiting for that one to appear! ok crap all this emotional stuff. lol.

Arrrr i am craving for ktv session! its been sometimes!

Goodday. sign off.

Saturday

2009-02-07T20:57:00.003+08:00

its SAturday! yet i need to go school! But somehow i woke up early eager to go school! lol perhaps i know the hardship of work and school was more fun! But lesson was kinda dry. Its communication skill. The tutor jus talk and talk .......and talk............talk! lol.

After school went to meet mike. Along with his sister, and his sis'bf. went thomson to have our lunch! Teochew porridge! Damn good la. Service was good people were friendly, and most importantly its cheap and the food is nice! =) Went furkids to search a puppy for mike sis. Anyway they decided to get a beagle! First they saw the cockel spaniard. but after they saw beagle. Gosh everyone was like so crazy with him. its so tempting to bring him home! Hopefully they could get the beagle and we could have a dog outing, with Mel's ker ker, my fat rossi and the new pups! =) it will be fun!!!!!! anyway i have that temptation to get another dog! lol.

All right that summarize my saturday, should not be going out, gotta rest well, jus recovered from my flu. i gotta stay at home! Tml sunday. lazing days and day to curse and swear about going to work on monday! =)

2009-02-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

this is crazyyyyyyyy

2009-02-06T15:26:00.000+08:00

They make us do that 10 post shot! i really sucks at it

2009-02-06T15:24:00.000+08:00

Chun and jialing took out their cam and started to flash at us! or particularly ME!

Yap/Xinjie Bachelor and hens night!

2009-02-06T15:16:00.002+08:00

ok those pictures were like taken one month ago! its just that i don't have that time to post! lol

Look at how drunk the couple is!!! i am think what if i have my bachelor night? mmm shall invite all to macdonald drink coke!!! lol Get a gf first then said -.-

2009-02-06T15:10:00.000+08:00

Classic look

2009-02-06T15:07:00.000+08:00

this is disgusting!!!

King raja jus sit and look! LOL

2009-02-06T15:06:00.000+08:00

2009-02-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

This is where it all begins! The drunken husband and wife!

GONG XI FA CAI~

2009-02-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

Happy new year to all!!!!!!!! Gong xi fa cai!!!

Going back to school!

2009-01-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm going back to school!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part-time!!!

Books projects exams again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

All right i'm back to school taking part time degree at unisim! haha have the urged to study and upgrade! BUT when i got my course material flip through a few pages, i kinda feel i am going to be in deep shit. Blancing work, studies is not that easy!!!!! I AM GOING TO MAKE IT!!!

WOSHHHHHH! wish me luck! =)

2009

2009-01-03T21:30:00.002+08:00

Welcome to year 2009.

Well lets look back for the past 1 month what i'hv been doing. Its a real busy deccmber!!!
All right have been working like a dog daily! colleagues going on leave, shorthanded, new team leader. Ok fulls top for work, nothing good mentioning! lol

Ok December marks my first best friend wedding. yap and xin jie finally tied the knot. Congrats them. Early morning like 3am plus reach yap house, need to reach bride house like 5am? ( the sabotage of the brother) ok didn't really sleep, so excited ya... i'll be yaps AHMAD! and They actually call me Ahmad! zzzz. FYI bride house was like just a street away from yap house! hahaha.

Ok reach there on time. once we reach main road we started horning like mad! And guess way 5am in the morning! And there is like this auntie wake up and shouted at us! SIAO AR PPL NO NEED SLP? wahahahaha of cus we dun heed any advice! lol. Reach bride house.. kena those shit from the SISTER! Eating bitter gourd with chillie and chocolate! Asking us to wear bras and panties! they actually spent liek $100 for those! asking us to use our legs to dip into pails filled with ice to get manjong tiles! its like feet damn numb can! lol for our brother!

Yea everything ended 1pm. reach home bath slept awhile headed down to the wedding dinner to help out. for experience kinda learn alot. Definitely feel happy for yap and xin jie.

After their event next event was christmas! ok we didn't really do much this year, thanks chun fro offering a nice steamboat dinner at his house and of cus xchanging our present. Ok this year i got something like a paper file which can be hang on walls which kinda very useful!! =)

Ok i started to updates things in a not so detail style! probably after working everything must be fast and straight forward no time wsting!!! lol but somehow i dun wana abandoned this 4 yrs blog! It will be nice reading some of the older post, in case i lost my typical memories! lol

All right new year party at siloso! beach party, foam party. LOL wonderful night out there. definitely! hahahaha.

Ok end of blog! Anyway 2009 no more new resolution. I just wan a healthy life, family.

3 more months to taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long weekend.

2008-12-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

Damn the long weekend just ended so fast! Tml back to reality! WORK! GOSHHHHH

No plan for chirstmas this year. Its getting boring each year. Its gotta be a silent christmas!

Sign off..... 3 more months to taiwan!

Dedicated to you.

2008-12-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

Ok coming to year ened, nothing good happen, and basically things happening around me was not that good.

Firstly mike loss his dad. We too lost a good companion. Since small he watched us grow, working with him before, and he was someone with much laughter. But yet he had to leave. We know he has gone to another world, a world that cold free from suffering, and most importantly he will watch over his families.

Has been going down to the wake to acc mike, thats what we can help him, emotional wise nothing much. Hopfully he will pick up himself.

Rest in peace.

Sign off..

Updates

2008-11-22T17:51:00.004+08:00

Seems like its been a month since i had said something here. Mmm wanted to do so but eh plain lazy and just time been really busy recently. ok lets see where shall we start.

Here it goes October 31st, went halloween night with jim, daniel and gang! Its really a fun night, i never to expect that dressing up was more fun than going in with normal dress! lol initially was damn ps... but end up JUST LET GO OF MYSELF! and i really did enjoy! lol fun fun fun.

Coming back to normal basic, daily work, slp tv, weekends didn't really went anywhere. Other than accompany yap to see his car stuff, but was suppose to accompany him, end up i buy some stuff myself! just can't resist!! SIMPLY CAN'T. hahaha

All right going taiwan in march, yes at last i am able to leave singapore and deserve a long 8 days trip to taiwan! HERE I COME TAIWAN! this is the thing that is keeping me to look forward. Oya talking about taiwan, went to Wang Li Hong Concert Theme "Music Man" mmm kinda impressed by him, his love for music and his talent in music. Worth the money!

Ok now comes back to work, i seriously been thinking should i leave, well i have made up my decision, i will! after my 1 year contract i'm going to leave IBM! kiss goodbye. Well no regrets at least i pick up some techniques, skills and gain number of knowledge. Next place will be a better one! i believe!

REcently catch quite number of drama series. Mmmm not bad haha good for killing times, especially that u have nothing to do during weekends. and for a lazy sunday!

I dun ask for a fancy relationship, i jsut ask for a simple one. but it seen like the simple it is, the harder it gets.

I'll be fine. sign out.
sign out

22/10/08

2008-10-22T19:40:00.005+08:00

All right! busy like a bee recently. theres just so much work to be done! zzz
ok i got myself a 12 points demerit! $200 fine for bashing through a red light! My mistakes no one to blame! SHIT! Slap ownself!

Ok view the video i posted. This russian singer, who has got such a high pitch!!! See to believe! Follow by second video this guy who imitates him! ITS REALLY FUNNY!!! u got to see the first video then follow by the second! Have a good laugh!

First Video( amazed by his high pitch)

Second Video( you will be laughin off yr pants!)

I just need that chance.

2008-10-12T19:45:00.003+08:00

走在人挤人的走道
我问了自己没有爱情的人
是否会长命那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信坐在没有人的角落
我也问自己究竟应该继续还是该放弃

没有人能了解我现在的心情

想看你想躲你难以决定
每当我想靠近你总会装冷静

眼看你的表情仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里他只是个游戏
我只想要靠近也很想要抱紧
回想到那过去和现在新的你
我还想要参与你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信我一定会陪你走下去
能不能够让我再说我爱你
还是你已不想听

能不能够把你彻底的忘记

我是真的搞不清只要你再相信
我们会輕輕的靠在一起

trying to hide from you, hide from your news, yr name and everything!
Its been so long. I should have walk away.
I don't have that courage to tell you.
I know i didn't do enough.
I didn't do enough to allow myself to walk into your life.
Regrets.

I know this will be better.
Miss you....

Busy week

2008-10-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

OK!!! WORK IS SO BUSY!! currently we are short of manpower. Everyday was like hell ya! With people trying to get their own ways, well it makes work more pathetic! ya!! SHIT! Bascially everyday was like hell, hopefully it will end soon, and i am waiting for dec to come! So everyone go on leave and stop creating problems with their lappy!

Weekends was normal jus that we celebrated 3 ppl birthday on the same day! Jim, Mel and Jennifer! haaa went ktv with them.

Arghhhh i seriously had no idea what i am doing, its just not the way i wan! I am just suppressing the feeling, its been so long yet damn, yes i am still thinking about her! ARGHHHHHHHHHH.

sign off!

Super Import Night

2008-09-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

VIP Ride!

GTR

2008-09-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

The new GTR SKYLINE R35

The backside OF R32 to R35

Front View of the GTRS

UPDATES

2008-09-22T21:14:00.002+08:00

ook i have been missing like for 2 weeks? haha all right past 2 weeks had a good weekends, talking weekdays nothing special WORK EAT WATCH TV SLP!

ok lets start 2 weeks back, well TRT enage into a new activity which is BADMINTON! lol quite fun ar, battling out each other. Anyway most importantly we enjoy the game, we sweat it out. Going for the next badminton session coming this weekends! HOHOHOHO. All right after badminton games we went home, and ivan suggested to watch movie which is THE DAY Singapore flim, talking about old time gangster things happening during 90's. Where gangsterism took place in our beloved secondary, well was kinda funny, but actors were abit lousy! =x well one of them was in my lecture grp during my poly times! lol

Well now talking about the weekends the jus past, went out with mum and sis to pray. then mel call ask me go super import nigh! and yes we went! AND ITS SO F**KING WASTE MONEY! Go in first thing see wah gtr.. then further in wah another GTR then walk somemore GTR AGAIN!!! it should call GTR show instead of SUPER IMPORT NIGHT> so disappointing! Gotta post some pics later. OK nvm looking forward for motor show which is this coming friday!!!! YES and ya damn F1 start this friday also? haaaa

All right i wana change phone! my this lousy k850i phone is like dying off each day so many problems! but then i need $$$$$$$$$ LOL all right ciaos will post pic soon!

One man band

2008-09-22T21:12:00.001+08:00

Came acros this video in youtube, kinda quite impress with his talent. Or maybe can said abit bo liao nothing to do then try this out!

Micheal jackson

2008-09-04T21:54:00.007+08:00

All right was driving back home from work, listen to the radio and they were actually talking aboutmicheal jackson! okay for yr info he jus turn 50 not long ago!! During the 80's he was like everyone idol. King of pop! Still remember during school days ppl would jus imitate him doing the moon walk and the spin and spin thing! ok i admit i am crazy about him when i am like in primary sch!. but ok jus look at him now... he jus look like abnormal.. ok look more like a lao ah gua. =x anyway i have uploaded a video, look at his dance move!!! LOL COOL!!! and he is the only pop star that do the same dance move over so many years yet ppl still scream for it when they sees it! Cheers for jackson!! u brought music to many ppl's life!

2008-09-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

i am hungry!

2008-09-03T20:42:00.001+08:00

Night out at pizzahut and gelara

2008-09-03T20:42:00.000+08:00

2008-09-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

sword fish collar
new york fish and chips
grilled fish!
seafood platter for 2

2008-09-03T20:38:00.000+08:00

Fish and Co

2008-09-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

Updates

2008-09-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

All right since i have this lil time i decides to come here and blog abit! last friday went fish and co at glass house, the place is like opposite ps. A nice place to have yr dinner! except that there seems to be so many ppl celebrating their birthday at there! every like 10 to 15 mins we hear a birthday song been sang!! ANYWAY I WENT THERE WITH MY COLLEAGUE TO CELEBRATE EMA"S BIRTHDAY lol...

Ok i didn't really do much on sat and sun! jus simply rotting at home! lol.

Went pizza hut with the mass orgy clan! ok i know its weird about the clan name! lol anyway we celebrated ema birthday again. todya is actually her actual birthday! haha will post the pic once i got it! enuff said, work is really draining my energy off! i need a serious break! =) ciaos guys slping time!

Childhood cartoon!

2008-08-28T22:00:00.004+08:00

Wonder if you guys still remember these cartoons from the 80's and early 90's.. Come refresh the memories of yr childhood times, where its the golden age for cartoon! And definitely more toys were produce, and its much more fun playing those toys than all the gadgets the kids are playing now. Still remember exchanging toys with neighbours, hanging ard corridors! Gosh it really brings back all those memories!

Over the weekends.

2008-08-24T01:35:00.004+08:00

Met up trt to celebrate ivan's birthday.Our dear Mr ivan turn 24!! hahaha welcome to the old man club IVAN LIM! A dinner at hana hana restaurant. Open by Grace's cousin. Anyway it serve japanese cruisine. The food was not bad! All right check out this place its at 233 river valley rd, beside the bak ku teh shop!

Okay we were all saying that trt is having lesser activities! and we really need to organise something to keep our bonds! ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD we are going to organise a badminton session!! LOL Lets do some execcrise ya! hahaha. After dinner went over to a bar to chill out. watched soccer! very nice place to chill out also, and they actually provide board games, chess, and many other games for consumer!

Olympics going to end! SAD!!! no more swimming, running, diving table tennis and much more! Jus so nice seeing them breaking world record! And of cus congrats singapore for winning a sliver medal in the table tennis woman team! and to usain bolt, can u pls transfer those fast elgs of yrs to me! so i can run faster! lol.

All right enough of saying. GOOD NIGHT PEEPS.

James blunt (PARODY) she was beautiful i swear!

2008-08-20T22:11:00.004+08:00

HAVE A GOOD LAUGH!!!
Stop the song in my blog and SEE THIS VIDEO!!!

Updates

2008-08-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

All right tis sunday!!! How would u describe your sunday? Sunday = laze around, slack, watch movie at home, bascially my sunday is jus relaxing my mind! Cause the very next day its monday!!! Working!!! damn..

What i have done over the weekends. Okay here it goes on friday night, met louis, jeffery and peiru for supper at macpherson!!! PRAWN NOODLES! i love prawn noodles!! the soup piang eh!!!! After supper went lower pierce to meet QL, after a chat we headed home! ENDED FRIDAY JUS ENDED!!!

and bascially i slack the whole day ytd. not really slack, i went bank in the monring, follow by wash my car, then follow by watch tv and then watch tv and then watch tv! LOL till 11 plus mike call he was free from his gf so met him and kel, dan at tpy for supper again! bascially now my hobbies is going supper at night! nothing else! lol ya went home quite early, ard 1 plus slept at 2 plus and its sunday!

Ok if u guys realise i had changed my blog pic. Something i wanted to do long ago! but then no time since ytd i had the time ytd i jus do it! Its simple la background no change, only editing the header pic then post it into the template! lol.

I WANA GO HOLIDAY!!!!!!! ANYONE?

Hell week!!

2008-08-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

All right yesterday was damn busy!!!! Work till 7 plus! And ok i pray today will be better! But then idiot it was even busier!!!! tml will be better! its friday!!!! =)

I am tired and this few nights i didn't really get to slp well, wake up middle of night again! and i am having headaches for the past 2 days!!! i am going blind soon, eyes glue onto the stupid laptop! and to be exact not even my laptop! i love what i'm doing, at the same time i really hate it too sometimes! ok i am contradicting.

i tried to live my life happier... last year was terrible. i should not have go to that far, i tried so long to walk out. and traces of u still lies in me. I am lousy in this, i admit. i am getting no where. I have direction for everything, career, family, friends. but somehow i am just so lousy in this!

enough said, time to slp! good night peeps. peaceful night....

2008-08-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

The cock Met the pussy!

2008-08-12T22:17:00.003+08:00

ok i know the title of this post sound dirty! but hey its a long story. Lol all right last week during lunch, ed acc me to workshop to fix my wiper, so we decide to have our lunch there before going back office.

okay while i am eating ed pointed and said hey theres a cock! ok i turn over its a rooster, mmm not sure is there any difference! ok nvm about that, and then he said hey here come the pussy! ok i turn over and its a cat! so he was saying the cock met the pussy! ok i admit, i laugh! and i actually taken the picture of the cat and the rooster!

Happy national day

2008-08-09T17:39:00.002+08:00

Happy National Day! Happy birthday Singapore!! i wish i wish i wish... for petrol prices to go down... lol.

Ytd after work went vivo for dinner with my colleagues, celebrating ires birthday! her birthday actually fall on national day! haha happy birthday to her also!

After dinner was like jus 9pm! and i am meeting kaixin 10.15 for our movie!! lol ok the rest went home and i actually walk ard vivo, suppose to be a window shopping, but i saw this shirt and i jus love it, went in try ok buy, then while waiting for the new piece i saw this bermudas, try, ok buy! i walk out of the shop with a shirt and bermudas! lol cannot resist la!!! after all its been sometimes since i buy something for myself! i have been spenting too much on car!!!!!!!!! lol.

Okay kaixin came earlier, we went top level sit down and started to talk about work! about schoollife is better, hahahaha. Watched Money no enough 2, okay its kinda funny, touching but i still feel that the previous production was better.

REcently i have been listening to old school song, kinda like reflect back, those songs were like part of the teenage memories! hahaha be it poly life, secondary school, army life, theres always different song to represent different part of yr life ya! Well perhaps listening to music could help to refresh some of yr old times memories! and u could jus smile to yrself! Glad u had yr family and friends to accompany u throughout yr life till now! Hurray to everyone!!!!!!

Its raining! poor singaporean who are there watching the national parade!!! All right gotta go watched the parade on tv!!! Salute to the pilot! they are GREAT!!!

Updates

2008-08-06T11:17:00.000+08:00

Since i had this lil time in office, well decides to jus update abit ya.

Haaa i seriously need a holiday! I have been stuck in singapore for like 2 yrs? last trip was bangkok! i need to leave singapore! lol. Went st james last friday! Wanted to get tbale in boiler room but full hse!!!! So pop into bellini room, shared a bottle of jonny walker, as usual play game, and Dniel the st james king! Got like so high!!! Went boiler room after that, daniel was dancing like a mad cow!!! okay seens like he jus came out of the cave. haha anyway theres this band named venus butterfly perform that day, didn't really know where they came from, thailand? but its a all girls band and they look gorgeous!!! Gosh playing guitar, drums keyboard sing! definitely they rocks!!!! lol.. REally enjoy that night its like 1 yrs plus since i hit the club.

Sat was slacking day, bascially i rot the whole day in my room watching Er zhuo ju zi wen 2. quite a nice show, and its so addictive, i only manage to watch like 8 episode of it!!! damn 12 more to go. Night time went to east coast to meet cousin for soccer, thers like 30 over players!!! 6 teams and once our team is out, we need to like wait for at least 45 mins for our turn, anyway tis quite fun la. Manage to score one goal only, lol...

Sunday!!! the day when black rain meet up and jammed! Yes proudly present to u guys, we had a new memeber and its a bassist! his name is edric, so currently our band is complete, 2 guitarist, mike and kang, bassist : edric and drummer: ME! hahahaha jammed a few songs, chasing car, alter bridge watched over u, mayday wen rou, enter sandman. haha we are improving!! 2 yrs of time to practise and coordinates! Gel ourselves together and hopefully we to somewhere! REalise my blog been so wordy! and ok i admit i am lazy to post pictures, and i have not much pictures to post also!!!! ITS BORING!

Nv point fingers at others, just think of that, u had one finger point at others but u have 4 fingers pointing back at yrself, so stop blaming others.

Christian the lion

2008-07-30T20:50:00.003+08:00

All right something to share about. Recently kang told me about this video in youtube, about a lion named christian. in 1969 he was bought over by 2 guys, he was still a cub, within years he grew like 186 pounds! haha so they had to let him go and adapt to wild life. Okay a year later both the guys went back to look for him! and guess what happen...

heres the link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiGKWoJi5qM

watch it peeps. U nv expects that. Its so touching!

to said.

2008-07-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

Still I couldn't find, Someone half as right as you
And each time I stop to think
What it is I really need
Heres what I conclude, All I really need is you
Just say what you want to say
You don't have a chance in the world
I know how I've tried
Still come close to losing you.

The final goodbye before i hand it over to the new owner!

2008-07-26T20:16:00.000+08:00